I get ragingly horny watching gay porn
1 May 2010Why do I get aroused by gay porn? At first I was uncomfortable with the fact that I did – like I was some sort of weirdo. I mean, I’m not even male. I didn’t come to terms with it for some time. I would perv for a bit when I stumbled across it, get hot, and be reminded that it did something for me. Weirdo!
And then one day I had the opportunity and mindset to explore. So I watched some. Lots, in fact. I noticed that I like guys with meat on their bones: not necessarily ripped, but solid. I liked the rawness they exude. When I watch heterosexual porn I see way too much of women play-acting their lust, badly, but I don’t get that with gay porn. (Maybe I don’t notice it because I’m not a gay guy.)
Watching all this gay porn with its focus on anal sex (which I’m not hugely into) I got hugely and ragingly horny. I had to wank: classic ‘Horny Net Guy’ wanking with one hand on the mouse and one hand on my crotch. I learned to wank left handed because it was easier than mousing left handed. I came quickly and hard.
Months later I did it all again, and it was no less intense. I was still highly uncomfortable with the idea that gay porn turned me on. But the question was starting to bug me – why? Because it has more men? More cock? More testosterone? Yes, that’s definitely part of it.
A few more months, and I came across an article by a lesbian that loves gay porn. OK, maybe I’m not so unusual. And raising my comfort levels is a good thing. I mentioned it to James, but I think he took it to mean that I wanted to watch him having gay sex. Nope, there’s no expectation there; that would be a whole different adventure. Right now I’m just coming to terms with the fact that I like gay porn. I’m not ready to even begin thinking about putting known faces to it.
More research was required, and some of that research was really hot. It involved hunting through gay porn and identifying the bits that made me want to wank. I discovered that it is videos rather than pictures; while I appreciate the display of man flesh, it is the hardcore fucking that gets me going. I let myself indulge in it by hitting the replay point where I had to start rubbing my clit. And I kept hitting it, and I kept rubbing, and I came hard. The bit that gets me is watching a man’s muscles working hard as he is fucking, his ass pushing forward as he thrusts, gripping the hips in front of him.
I got curious. Don’t we see this in heterosexual porn? The short answer is no: we don’t see much at all. There’s a big focus on cock-in-pussy shots, plus money shots of course. Maybe some women’s asses, but no men’s asses.
In gay porn I see lots of male asses. Is this really the thing that gets me going? Yep, it seems to be. Now that I’ve identified it, I wonder if I will allow myself to indulge. What would be next? If I found heterosexual porn that had the same sort of shots would like it too? Perhaps, if the rawness and realness was there too.
I’d like to explore watching James fuck me – make more use of our wonderful mirror. The problem is that my ability to concentrate while he fucks me is significantly impaired! A problem well worth overcoming…
May I sugest to set up a camrecorder from behind and simply record it ;)
Black Matrixx
@Black Matrixx – Great minds! We have been thinking along these lines in other regards as well…
Good for you for exploring this aspect of your sexuality. I absolutely love to watch His ass in the mirror as He pounds me. It gets me sooooo hot, and i can’t concentrate. Great idea of recording Him from the rear. We only have “incidental” shots of this, but He likes the view of the poundee.
Nice to hear I’m not the only one that finds this just *so hot*! Pics are good but, yeah, the recording idea is making me really hot too.
Gay male porn turns me on more than any other kind, although watching butches fuck would be close. I love the same things you do: the muscles working, the realism, the intensity, strength-on-strength. For a little while, I felt embarrassed about my preference (I’m mostly a dyke) but finally let myself off the hook. Why should I apologize for what turns me on?
and yeah, one hand on the mouse, one hand down my pants.. been there and got off to that, too.
Sexy Blog, a beautiful and sassy photo of yourself!
Very very lovely.
You are definitely not alone, although I don’t really watch too much porn. Why do you think Queer as Folk was just as popular with straight women as with gay men? That’s a great series to Netflix, btw.
@Kyle – “Why should I apologize for what turns me on?” Precisely!
@cheapescortlondon – thank you very much. Welcome to my wee corner of the world.
@Grace – Interesting to hear about the TV popularity. I like the idea of the disparity being in more than one genre of entertainment.
I understand this. As a hetero male sometimes I like to see this in straight porn (which agreed is rare) because I can’t see myself “power thrusting” from the backside…only the front action.